My mind and heart are still troubled, I do not feel anything, just the fear. I know it must be spiritual thing, but all my doubts are rising back again as if I never went through them before. He is away and I have no idea for how long, only the assumptions. I am afraid to see something or to hear the news of an engagement. In my mind I do not have any hope.
Last night I've happened to watch "Persuasion" - faithfulness, hope, love...but this world is so different now.
I read blog entries of people who are just a little younger then me and I do not understand them. For me things are much more simpler and I do not think that they ever were that complicated or sophisticated. I feel like a fool in this world with my "down to earth" understandings and thoughts. Who will consider a fool, who will have interest in a fool? ...... I am glad that You are interested and You do consider me. All the great wisdom of men is nothing compared to Yours, but Your words can be understood even by a child, even by a simple or mentally retarded person.
What is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You visit him?
Thank You that You do not change with this world and Your faithfulness, love and hope are the same. This is the only way to live on this earth - holding on to You. I cannot trust neither my heart nor my mind right now because they are filled with fear, but I can trust You and Your wisdom, holding on to You and trying to continue to be still, knowing that You are God! .....I love You! Natasha
Last night I've happened to watch "Persuasion" - faithfulness, hope, love...but this world is so different now.
I read blog entries of people who are just a little younger then me and I do not understand them. For me things are much more simpler and I do not think that they ever were that complicated or sophisticated. I feel like a fool in this world with my "down to earth" understandings and thoughts. Who will consider a fool, who will have interest in a fool? ...... I am glad that You are interested and You do consider me. All the great wisdom of men is nothing compared to Yours, but Your words can be understood even by a child, even by a simple or mentally retarded person.
What is man that You are mindful of him, the son of man that You visit him?
Thank You that You do not change with this world and Your faithfulness, love and hope are the same. This is the only way to live on this earth - holding on to You. I cannot trust neither my heart nor my mind right now because they are filled with fear, but I can trust You and Your wisdom, holding on to You and trying to continue to be still, knowing that You are God! .....I love You! Natasha
